is DaMn Sad k..

went kl for the malaysia seagame poomsae team selection..
wat i wan to say is..it is totally a bloody hell selection..
i hav no idea for wat reason, we have not been informed that under 18 cant participate..
we sent 5 players to the selection included me, 4 of them are under 18..(wat?!?)
they win liao rite? waste money, waste time, waste energy..end up cant participate..
of cos im still happy enuf..cos im the only one who are able to take part..
but is this the way they pass down the information?

selection started...
i had been discussing wif my junior during the selection that..
how can we go for this low standard selection?? (not i arrogant k, its pretty obvious)
and still, dun even have a chance for my junior to perform themselves,
which the truth is all of my junior are better than the rest..
at first wat we think, is to go there see where we stand,
and learn the gd technique from others,correct our own mistakes..
but..wat we see...is totally bull shit..most of them are un-prepared..
at that point of time...i only can think of, "if i never get into the team, i think im lousy enuf.."

ok...succeed in the first round-taeguek 8..get into the final..
i think..is obviously enuf..i got the highest score in 1st round..(if not at least the 2nd highest)
not i hao lian-ing again k...my junior n senior say one...
so...im so happy and sure that i hav the chance to get into the national squad...
finally im able to bcom a national player..

but u noe wat happen in the 2nd round..?
wat the fucking panel wan us to do shipjin (5th dan pattern)...
ma de..i only 1st dan k..can do taebaek is gd enuf liao..
then...i say i dunno how to do...they straight away say.."sorry...you are out for 2nd round.."
wthwtfknnbccbwthwtfknnbccbwthwtfknnbccbwthwtfknnbccb...
the most cb thing is...all the rest noe how to do...
when i request that at least let me perform my taebaek..they say" no no nooo..next..."
ma de hai.... not a single chance for me..
that means wat?
just bcos i dunno how to do a higher dan pattern,
i miss the chance to represent country to take part in the seagame...
I MISS THE CHANCE TO REPRESENT MALAYSIA TO THE SEAGAME K? is SEAGAME ok?
how much i wish i can represent my country in any games...
i have thought of that for so many years...
got the chance this time, but i see it fly away infront of me..jus bcos i dunno how to do shipjin?
dunno shipjin = no seagame
how can i dun use vulgar in this post?? huh??
the luck was not on my side again..at such a important time..how sad is this..
and finally i noe the truth y malaysia has no improvement in any sports event..
is not fair at all...wat kind of referee they are?
they do not select those talented ppl, but those "win" the game..
do you all noe that even some ppl cannot do that pattern, but if they are talented,
they can learn it very fast..
wats the purpose of choosing those ppl who cannot do very nice pattern at first..
at the end, they announce the result..
for the girl side, the one who got 2nd place, is someone i win her b4 in the icto tournament..
1st place, is someone who is 4th dan...of cos she noe how to do shipjin..
for boy side, more stupid the situation is, is super obvious that a malay guy shld get no.1,
but bcos he did wrong a few steps of shipjin pattern, he got nth..
not even get into the reserve player list...
how stupid of the way they organise this selection...
im 99% sure that they cant win any medal in the seagame..

no one will noe about my feeling now..
and now, after one day, i oledy learn up the shipjin pattern...
jus giv me 30mins, i can learn it n perform it for you all to see..
but u all never giv me a single chance..
dun hav any mood..damn sad...
probably will sad for 2 years...until the next selection for the seagame 2 years later..
but 2 years later is there another chance for me to go for the selection? i doubt so..
this is the first time seagame has poomsae competition..
in an urgent, they organise a selection and open to everyone to take part...
but 2 years later, they have their own national poomsae team..
wont have selection anymore...
dun hav any more chances for me..
how i wish this kind of thing..will not happen to me again..
sad..